One Hungry Soul

God and I had a wee chuckle today.

My closet has been my sanctuary for a long while now. A place where I can hide from the world and just be me in the presence of my Creator.

Sometimes people talk to me through the door. Sometimes there’ll be a little head on my lap in the quiet dark, but for the most part it’s just me, my clothes, shoes, future Christmas presents, all the tasty snacks that can no longer live in the kitchen and plenty of space for Holy Spirit.

Most of the time I simply show up. I’m here. 

I like to breathe, stretch out my neck and back against the wall, feeling the comfort of my little lap rug over my knees. 

Sometimes I even manage spend a small amount of time intentionally tuned in to God.

A lot of the time my mind wanders. Grateful for the space to wonder. 

I love the saying ‘God wants to speak to us even more than we desire to listen’ so I trust God takes my closet time seriously and works out how to get my attention. I really love how patient and understanding our Father is. This is how God spoke to me just now…

A quote from my one of my favs – Henri Nouwen:

Solitude molds self-righteous people into gentle, caring, forgiving persons who are so deeply convinced of their own great sinfulness and so fully aware of God’s even greater mercy that their life itself becomes ministry. In such a ministry there is hardly any difference left between doing and being. When we are filled with God’s merciful presence, we can do nothing other than minister because our whole being witnesses to the light that has come into the darkness. H.N

This. So this. I want this. 

My next sound bite of the day in the midst of a season of working on surrender and trust is this gem in my Pinterest mail out:

We repent enough to be forgiven, but do we surrender enough to be changed?

And it hit me – this isn’t just a closet – it’s a CHANGING ROOM. Get it? Because it’s a small cubicle and there’s clothes…. And because slowly, but patiently and carefully He’s changing me. I trust this to be true.

That made me smile on an otherwise ‘character building’ kind of week. 

Thank you Lord for loving me